DAY 1 [Sept. 12]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHY ALEGRE!
My expected time of arrival in St. Paul was quarter to 5am but I arrived there at 4:30am. Oooohh. Sinong excited? Anyway, saw Bax and went with her to go to Moki. Can I just share na Moki's the sweetest guy? Laln. He didn't sleep and went to St. Paul at 'round 4am to see Bax before she leaves for Benguet. Sweet no? Laln.
Received a message that read "gusto mo akong sunduin dito sa car namen?". Siyempre, being the good girl *ehem* that I am, sinundo ko naman. Haha. Laln. People started arriving and yun. Trip to Benguet na.
Really enjoyed being in the bus. Kahit na all I did was complain that my headaches and it's freakin' cold. Hahaha. Bakit kaya enjoy? Hmmmm... Isipin natin... *looks at Kam and Dean and smiles* Anyway, we watched Shrek 2 sa bus. Laln.
After 9 agonizing hours for our gluteus maximus-es, we arrived Mt. St. Paul in La Trinidad. We had to "trek" to get there. Malaking wala lang. Hahaha. Settled in the ever-so-small-and-closet-less room. Roomate's Kam, by the way.
Okay. We had these 2 facilitators that annoyed us. Animators sila. Wala lang. Oti nung isa. Sobrang exaj. Feel na feel mag-animate. In Abi's vocabs, exaggeration of movements is synonymous to "namo-Monet". The girl's name is Monet. Hehe. Laln.
Our priest-slash-retreat-master didn't make it in time for our mass and sessions so medyo maaga call time namin sa pagtulog. Hah. Well, didn't really sleep at the given time. Wala lang. Kinausap kasi ako ng Guardian Angel ko e.
Okay. There was one thing that's bothering me right now. Well, the talk I had with somebody made me think. I really can't post here kung ano yung pinagusapan namin 'cause it's too confidential. Baka may magkagulo pa. Ang masasabi ko lang, hindi siya yung tipo ng tao na gumagawa ng kwento para ikasira ng iba. Pero hindi rin natin alam... Hindi lang talaga ako makapaniwala.
You, wala lang naman yung pinoproblema mo e. Yeah, siguro nga, samin, wala lang yun. Pero kung sayo meron, wala lang. E kasi nga wala lang talaga yun e. Matagal na yung thing na yun no. Tapos na. "It's over and done..." Hehehe.
DAY 2 [Sept. 13]
10 mins. before call time na kami nagising ni Kam. Kung hindi pa pumasok si Manats, hindi pa kami pareho babangon.
-Morning praise-
-Breakfast-
-Session 1-
-Breaktime-
The session before lunch really had its impact on me. Exaj. Wala lang. Fr. Rojohn Ramirez, our retreat master, identified the stages of loving. Well, the stages are actually 3 kaso I didn't quite grasp the third one. So, the stages are:
1. Falling in love
2. Falling out of love
Well, Dean and I agreed na mali yung falling out of love. Kasi nga naman, bakit mo mamahalin yung isang tao kung alam mong sa huli, pag nahihirapan ka na, bibitiwan mo. A, ewan! Hahahaha.
One of the things that Father said that totally caught my attention was:
Wala lang. Tama ba yun? Well, we really don't know. All we ever want is a happily-ever-after sort of life pero pwede nga ba yun?
Meron pang dalawang things na tinake note ko:
"THE MORE WE KEEP THE WOUNDS, THE MORE IT GETS WORSE."
Agh! Ang galing-galing! Oti ko. Hahaha. Can relate ka ba, Ale? Shet.
He also gave us the 10 Steps to Greater Self-Esteem.
1. Decide to improve yourself.
2. Change the way you look at yourself.
3. Say positive things about yourself aloud to others.
4. Re-examine your relationship with others.
5. Get rid of the negative self thoughts in your head.
6. Write positive notes to self.
7. Open yourself to hear positive comments from others.
8. Make a specific change in your behavior.
9. Give and get more hugs.
10. Work hard and meaningful communication with another person.
-Lunchtime-
2 hours were given for our siesta. Talked to an Angel. Malungkot nga lang yung naging end nung conversation. Haiii.
-Session 3-
-Merienda-
-Confessions-
Acolyte ako nung mass. Well, 'twas kinda weird kasi hindi ko naman talaga alam yung ginagawa ng mga sacristan e. Hindi ko naman sila pinapanood pag mass. Mas alam ko pa yung work ng commentator at nung priest. Hahahaha. Lolz. Pero yun. Ok naman daw sabi ni Dean. Galing ko nga daw e, sabay palakpak. Hahaha.
-Dinner-
-Session 4-
Open Forum. Okay. All I can say is naiyak ako sa mga classmates ko. Turned out almost, if not all, samin nakakafeel ng pagiging outcast sa class namin ngayon. Wala lang. Ayun. I've opened that issue na jinujudge ako nang hindi pa ako kinikilala. May natamaan naman ako, malamang. Siguro naman hindi siya manhid. Pinaringgan din naman niya ako e. Nagkatinginan na nga lang kami ni Dean e. Ayun. Nag-sorry din ako kay Joy. Basta yun. Tapos yung isa pa na sobrang hindi ko na dapat banggitin. Alam naman na ng class namin e.
Na-touch ako kay Dean. Sa sobrang pagka-touch ko, I cried. As in hagulgol. Waaaah!! Tawag tuloy niya sakin "Crybaby". Asarrrrr.
-Bedtime-
DAY 3 [Sept. 14]
-Waking-
-Morning Praise-
-Breakfast-
Nag-ayos na ng stuff kasi uuwi na. Awwww. Tear! Hahahaha. We had to fold EVERYTHING para daw hindi mahirapan yung mga nag-aayos dun. Okifoign.
After fixing the dorms, we headed to the hall for our 2nd to the last session. Yun yung part na magbabasa ng letters from parents. Well, I wasn't expecting anything since sinabi sakin na wala daw silang letter for my retreat kaya nung inabot sakin yung letter nila, I started crying. Hindi ko pa nga nababasa, umiyak na ako. We were to write a writeback and that we did. The letters were offered dun sa huling mass.
The last session was hug therapy. Wah! Bitin! The time given was 5 mins. Ang ikli, men! Pero sobrang comfort yung nafeel ko. Ganun naman lagi pag hinu-hug ako e. Hehe.
-Mass-
-Bili ng Pasalubong/Rest-
-Go to bus-
-Lunchtime-
Yun. After lunch, we started going down. Yun. Super tahimik nung bus kasi pagod lahat and we were all asleep. Yun. An hour or two after, we started talking and maingay nanaman. Enjoy nanaman yung sa bus. Hahaha. Labo ko. Last stop over in Petron. Ate merienda and took loads of pictures. Hahaha. Laln.
Arrival in St. Paul: 9pm. Maaga pa yun, men! Wah! Sana yung trip pauwi mejo matagal kahit hilong-hilo ako. Hehehee.
Yung pix sa susunod na. Hehehe. Pagna-upload na sa Yahoo! Groups namin. Haha.
*Ang tanging ninanais ko/Ay matamo lamang ang pag-ibig mo/Lahat ay iiwasan ko/Wala nang kailangan/Sapat na ito*
*Siya noon, bukas, ngayon/Sa panalangin ko'y tugon/Siya ay si Hesus sa habang panahon* [Dean at Kam, mga walang hiya kayo! Binuking niyo ako! Harapan pa ha! Hahaha. Lolz. Mahal ko kayo!]
*What took you so long to make me cry?*
*What a journey it has been...* [with matching actions na namo-Monet]
*Ikaw lamang ang pangakong mahalin...*
*Puso ko'y binihag mo/Sa tamis ng pagsuyo*
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