New Template Alert! [Edited]

What's up with the layout? Laln. Angasss e. Hahaha. Laln.

My Tweenie wouldn't have said it any better:

"Holding on wouldn't make me have him back. I know, 'cause I tried."

"If my happiness would only cause burden on someone, why be happy?"

"In our lives, there would always be a time when we make mistakes, ones we are conscious of doing and ones that for us are no, but may continuously give pain to the people we dearly love. These mistakes we regret, and usually we would just wish that we could turn back time and change whatever we have done, so as to avoid the consequences and pain we know we could experience. Sad to say, some people become wallowed on their regrets and can't find a way to escape the feeling of hopelessness. But on the brighter side, there are still some people who manage to change and pay back, and plan to make up and fill the empty spaces of the lives they have made hollow."

Hai. The highlighted line. Sana nga.

"The truth is tearing up my heart.
I can't recognize this place.
The endless road without a stop sign.
Can't even find a stranger this time.
Why am I still holding back my tears?
In this loneliness, there's nothing to fear.
Every chord seems wonder.
How could we be together?
Everytime I ask this, would this be the last?
Why am I still talking to myself?
Hoping you would have the keys.
Every song might calm the weather.
But it just draws me deeper.
How do I get out of this?
I think I never will."

Mejo malabo yung ibang lines. Got that from a layout while blogskin-hopping. Laln. Natuwa nanaman ako. Hahaha.

"May uwi si nanay sa bahay..." *chants*

Watched Feng Shui last night and I really freaked out. The prosthetics looked real! Waw. Galing. Haha. Pero yung story parang sa Ring. In Ring, when you watch the video, you die. In Feng Shui, when you see yourself dun sa mirror nung whatdoyoucallthatluckthing, you die. Pero the owner won't. Pag binasag niya lang yun. Hahaha. Laln. Pero I totally freaked out. Pathetic. Hahaha. Laln.

The last part, SUPER FREAKY! Hahaha. Laln.

Saw Carmina Villaruel and Duncan Ramos with his girlfriend, of course. Heeks. Lagi naman silang magkasama e. And Carmina Villaruel is super thin. Pag hinipan mo, lilipad. Nakakatakot. Hahaha. No offense.

Nga pala:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY B*TCHMATE, KIARS!

It's September 25...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONIQUE JANE POMPA LORENZO!

*Tweenie Ko!*

Yep! It's my Tweenie's birthday! Yeah!

*Tweenie ko, tanda mo na! Hehe. Lolz. Anyway, lam ko at alam kong alam mong marami tayong misunderstandings. I don't know kung ano nang tingin mo dun pero ako, kinalimutan ko na yun. Wala lang. Drama! Basta, kung kailangan mo ng karamay, andito lang ako. Ingat ka and I soooooo miss you. Luvyah, Tweenie! *hug* BLOWOUT NAMAN JAN! Hehe. Labas tayo minsan! Miss ko na yun e. Kahit sa G4, okay lang. Hehe. Sige na!!! Sagot mo ha! Lolz. Joke lang. Pero labas nga tayo minsan. Hehe. Labo.

Anyway, was in Eastwood last night. Treated Jopet, Kuya, Kam, Chino, Krix, Francis and Ana since wala akong maski pakain lang nung birthday ko talaga. Went to Ipanema kasi Kam's tito owns the place. So, there. Well, Kuya wanted to dance so we went to The Basement pero the place was reserved for some fraternity so we transfered to Blue Onion. Kam and Krix had to go home so I was left with the guys and Ana. Minutes after, Ana had to go to so I was left with the guys. Talked to Jopet while the 3 danced the night away. After quite sometime, had to go to. So yun. Hahaha.

Before Ipanema nga pala, sobrang HB ko. Kasi naman e. Sinabing magkikita sa Galle, tumuloy sa Eastwood. Hrmph. Yung tropa ko nga pala yan. Hehe. Pero sobrang HB ko talaga. Pero when I was with them na, wala na. Kinalimutan ko na yung ka-HB-han ko. My dad even offered me medicine na pampababa daw ng blood pressure. Hahaha. Joke niya lang. Hehe.

*Jopet, Kuya, Kam, Chino, Krix, Cisco and Ana, THANKS A BUNCH! Napasaya niyo akong lahat. You guys don't know how much last night means to me. Thanks talaga.

*Kam, SORRY! Feeling ko sakin ka nabadtrip nung huli. Sorry talaga. And sorry kasi hindi ko nakunan ng pic si ANO for you. Hehe.

*Krix, sorry sayo ko nabuhos yung HB ko nung nasa Galle tayo. Hahahaha. Pero enjoy naman tayong maglakad at magkwentuhan tungkol sa mga tao, e, diba? Haha.

*Kiko and Ana, ANG VAIN NIYONG MAG-ASAWA! Hahaha. Laln. Pero na-miss ko ka-mushy-han niyong dalawa sa isa't isa. Hahahahahaha.

*Chino, hindi mo na tinuloy yung dare. Sayang, Php200 pa naman yun. Hahaha. I'm willing to give you 1k pa naman kung ginawa mo yun. Lolz. Hehe.

*Kuzz, for the first time nakasama kita sa ganitong gimmick! Hahaha. Laln. Kasi nung una, well, we both know what happened there. Hahahaha.

*Baby Jopet Ko, okay. First of all, sorry. Sorry kasi ganun yung nafi-feel mo. Kasi wala akong effort and sorry kasi trip ko lang mag-sorry. Hahaha. Lolz. Pero yun. Sorry. Thanks for understanding, though. And for the flowers. Haha. Oti ko. Pero yun. I love you po. And I hope to see you real soon.

I have to quote my mom on this:

"HINDI LAHAT NG DAPAT, GAGAWIN."

"HINDI LAHAT NG DAPAT, TAMA."

Hahaha. Laln. We were talking yesterday and yan yung mga nisabi niya sakin. Dean, may mga pambara na ako jan sa "hindi lahat ng gusto, pwede" mong lines. Hahah. Lolz.

And, uhm, another quote:

"DON'T BREAK PROMISES. THEY MIGHT MEAN THE WORLD TO SOMEONE"

Nakito ko lang yan while looking for another layout. Yes. I'm shopping for another layout. Ewan ko ba. Hindi na nakuntento. I'm letting the Angel thing go. Hahaha. Laln.


"I'm all alone...=c"

*Update*

Wahahahaha. Nagalit samin yung adviser ng room 9! Hehehe. Laln. Nakakatawa. "Culminary". Siya nag-sabi niyan. Pinagsama ang "culinary" at "culminating". Okaaaayyy.

Ninakaw ko sa isang blog ni Kam [Click niyo name niya!]:

"Ikaw nga ang syang hanap-hanap
Kay tagal na ako ay nangarap
Lumuluhod, nakikiusap
Ako ay mahalin mo sinta

Ikaw nga ang syang magbabago
Sa akin, sa aking buhay
Handang iwanan ang lahat
Upang makapiling ka / para lang sa'yo sinta"

Nice song no? Hehe. Laln. Siyempre, biased. Southborder e. Isa pa:

"Ikaw na nga ang hanap-hanap lang ang puso't damdamin
Kailan ka magiging akin?"


Saw 2-9's bulletin board kanina and ang lungkot ng nakalagay...

Those who live in dreams die in reality.

Saaaadddd.

*Kam, tomorrow ha! Excited na ako! Hehe. Laln.

*Fellow Kilabots, add niyo account natin sa Friendster!

kilabots_porpito@yahoo.com

POTAH.

YOU'RE DOING A HELLA GOOD JOB IGNORING ME! CONGRATS!

Pwede namang pag-usapan, diba? Bakit kaya hindi natin 'to mapag-usapan? *thinks*

*beep*

Guess lang. Siguro kasi hindi mo nga ako pinapansin! Siguro lang ha. Ni "hi", ni "hoe", wala! Reply sa lahat ng notes na pinass ko sayo kanina, wala. Reply sa text ko, wala.

So, ano na? Ganun na lang yun? Bigla mo na lang akong dededmahin sa hindi ko malamang kadahilanan? Sige, ok lang. Kung saan ka sasaya, dun ako. Suportado ka ni Ale.

ACET and USTET.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTHIA CARISSA A. QUEMA!

Yesterday, I took the ACET. Can I just say one thing? MAHIRAP SIYA, MEN! Okay, sige sabihin niyong madali but hell! Bobo na kung bobo, nahirapan talaga ako. The English part was fine but the Math part? Wah! Nakatanga ako sa paper ko for the first 10 bloody minutes. Hai nako. Ewan. Bahala na si Batman sa results ng ACET ko. I'm not going to Ateneo naman even if I pass. Hahaha. Dream on, Ale... Haha.

Anyway, while waiting in line sa Ateneo kahapon, kasama ko sina Elaine, Hannah and Valmo. Saw Pepay, Barbie, Alva, Krisabelle, Bern, Tanya Diaz and Vea. Yun. Laln.

Nung Friday nga pala "reunion" ng Trisix sa harap ng room 3. Wah! I miss those moments. In all fairness, pati si Jec, andun. Hehehe. Bihirang mangyari e. Wala lang. I MISS TRISIX LANG. Sana madalas yung ganung bonding. Hai. Pero I admit, medyo may kinakailangan [hindi kailangan, need. Kailangan, uncomfortable] ako sa Trisix ngayon. Actually, hindi ko nga siya matingnan sa mata e. Pero nagi-greet ko naman siya sa corridor. Laln. Weird nga e. Hehe.

Kanina, test ko sa UST. Was with Kuya and Chino and Jopet. Yeah. The 3 closest guys in my heart. Hahaha. Moral support. Laln. Saw Dean and Leynes and Riva and Lessette and Rejine and Janelle. Yeah. Rejine and Janelle. Yung classmates ko nung gradeschool. Honestly, akala ko hindi umabot sa kanila yung mga college crap. Masama na kung masama. Hahaha. Anyway, was with my cousin Monique sa room ng pinagtestan ko. Ayun. Met these 2 people. Jhcy and Richard. Hehe. Wala lang. Seatmates kami e. And after ng bawat set, kwentuhan. Hehe. Am I friendly or what? Hahaha. Laln. Ayun.

USTET is easier than the ACET. Exaj ang kalayuan nila sa Difficult-o-meter. Sabi nga ni Riva "Ito lang ng UPCAT yung USTET." *points the end of her pinky finger* Hahaha. Pero totoo nga. Laln.

*YOU, You didn't have to do what you did. Ano ka ba? Alam mo namang andito lang ako if you needed someone to listen to what you've got to say. Kahit gano kalabo pa yan, pakikinggan ko wag mo lang gagawin yang ginawa mo. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine na gagawin mo yun. Alam kong nahihirapan ka. Pero ano pang silbi ko, diba? You've been there for me countless times na and understood me. I assure you na ako din ganun sayo. Walang magagawang tulong yung ginawa mo, swear. Lalo mo lang sinaktan sarili mo. I'm not blaming you or anything pero...AGH! Shet. Sana lang hindi mo ginawa yun. I'm ALWAYS here for you. 24/7. Sabihin mo lang if you need to talk or anything.

*Kam, sama ka na sa Friday! Sasama na sila Kuya! Sa Dish sa may ABS-CBN tayo, if ever. Hehe. Go na! Luvyah, Soulmate!

*Dean, ang gago mo kanina! Wah! *wink* Luvyah! Thanks sa Burn ha. Hehe.

*Bie, ok na tayo ha. See you on Friday! I love you!

Yung gusto o yung dapat? That is the question.

"Ikaw ang siyang pag-ibig ko/Asahan mo ang katapatan ko/Kahit ang puso ko'y nalulumbay/Mananatiling ikaw parin."

LOVE--The RISK worth taking...

There is a risk involved in everything
Every time you share a smile
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening yourself up to hurt.

Some people tread slowly through life,
Avoiding the closeness risk brings,
Sidestepping the things they can not understand
Turning away from those who care too much-
Those who care stay too long,
Those who hold too tightly.

There is never an easy way to love
You cannot approach it cautiously
It will not wait for you to arm yourself.

It does not care if you turn away
It is everywhere, it is everything.
Love is the greatest of all risks.

It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic
It is unprejudiced and unmerciful.
It strikes the strongest of mind,
And brings them to their knees in one blow.

Even in the best of times, love hurts.
It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be the other part of someone else,
Without either of your consent.

But, from the moment it overtakes you,
It hurts worse to be all alone.
The risk of love never depletes;
It grows stronger and more dangerous with time.
But, it is in the total surrender of all defense,
That we, no matter weak or strong,
No matter willing or captive,
No matter what, we truly experience love.

Despite the many things love is not,
Outweighing it all are the things that love is.
Love is surrender without a loss.
It is a gift without the cost.
It consumes your every thought and desire,
Every breath you take.
It is the fire that fuels you
To do more than pass through life;
It urges you, instead, to live.

No matter the outcome, having felt love,
You will never be the same.
It may scar your heart and soul
And leave you only memories of forever.
Or, it may cause every day of your life
To feel like there is no need for tomorrow.
But, love is worth it. It is worth the risk...

For in all of life,
Love is truly the only risk worth taking.

Listen up, y'all!

YO, SHAWTY, IT'S MAH BIRTHDAY!

Hahahaha. Wala lang.

Retreat 2004-2005.

Waw! Came home from my 3-day retreat in La Trinidad, Benguet. And the trip was freakin' tiring. Hai. Had fun naman e.

DAY 1 [Sept. 12]

HAPPY 20TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY, JOPET!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHY ALEGRE!

My expected time of arrival in St. Paul was quarter to 5am but I arrived there at 4:30am. Oooohh. Sinong excited? Anyway, saw Bax and went with her to go to Moki. Can I just share na Moki's the sweetest guy? Laln. He didn't sleep and went to St. Paul at 'round 4am to see Bax before she leaves for Benguet. Sweet no? Laln.

Received a message that read "gusto mo akong sunduin dito sa car namen?". Siyempre, being the good girl *ehem* that I am, sinundo ko naman. Haha. Laln. People started arriving and yun. Trip to Benguet na.

Really enjoyed being in the bus. Kahit na all I did was complain that my headaches and it's freakin' cold. Hahaha. Bakit kaya enjoy? Hmmmm... Isipin natin... *looks at Kam and Dean and smiles* Anyway, we watched Shrek 2 sa bus. Laln.

After 9 agonizing hours for our gluteus maximus-es, we arrived Mt. St. Paul in La Trinidad. We had to "trek" to get there. Malaking wala lang. Hahaha. Settled in the ever-so-small-and-closet-less room. Roomate's Kam, by the way.

Okay. We had these 2 facilitators that annoyed us. Animators sila. Wala lang. Oti nung isa. Sobrang exaj. Feel na feel mag-animate. In Abi's vocabs, exaggeration of movements is synonymous to "namo-Monet". The girl's name is Monet. Hehe. Laln.

Our priest-slash-retreat-master didn't make it in time for our mass and sessions so medyo maaga call time namin sa pagtulog. Hah. Well, didn't really sleep at the given time. Wala lang. Kinausap kasi ako ng Guardian Angel ko e.

Okay. There was one thing that's bothering me right now. Well, the talk I had with somebody made me think. I really can't post here kung ano yung pinagusapan namin 'cause it's too confidential. Baka may magkagulo pa. Ang masasabi ko lang, hindi siya yung tipo ng tao na gumagawa ng kwento para ikasira ng iba. Pero hindi rin natin alam... Hindi lang talaga ako makapaniwala.

You, wala lang naman yung pinoproblema mo e. Yeah, siguro nga, samin, wala lang yun. Pero kung sayo meron, wala lang. E kasi nga wala lang talaga yun e. Matagal na yung thing na yun no. Tapos na. "It's over and done..." Hehehe.

DAY 2 [Sept. 13]

10 mins. before call time na kami nagising ni Kam. Kung hindi pa pumasok si Manats, hindi pa kami pareho babangon.

-Morning praise-

-Breakfast-

-Session 1-

-Breaktime-

The session before lunch really had its impact on me. Exaj. Wala lang. Fr. Rojohn Ramirez, our retreat master, identified the stages of loving. Well, the stages are actually 3 kaso I didn't quite grasp the third one. So, the stages are:

1. Falling in love
2. Falling out of love

Well, Dean and I agreed na mali yung falling out of love. Kasi nga naman, bakit mo mamahalin yung isang tao kung alam mong sa huli, pag nahihirapan ka na, bibitiwan mo. A, ewan! Hahahaha.

One of the things that Father said that totally caught my attention was:

"THE END IS ALWAYS PAINFUL."

Wala lang. Tama ba yun? Well, we really don't know. All we ever want is a happily-ever-after sort of life pero pwede nga ba yun?

Meron pang dalawang things na tinake note ko:

"THE PEOPLE WE LOVE MOST ARE THE SAME PEOPLE WE HURT."

"THE MORE WE KEEP THE WOUNDS, THE MORE IT GETS WORSE."

Agh! Ang galing-galing! Oti ko. Hahaha. Can relate ka ba, Ale? Shet.

He also gave us the 10 Steps to Greater Self-Esteem.

1. Decide to improve yourself.
2. Change the way you look at yourself.
3. Say positive things about yourself aloud to others.
4. Re-examine your relationship with others.
5. Get rid of the negative self thoughts in your head.
6. Write positive notes to self.
7. Open yourself to hear positive comments from others.
8. Make a specific change in your behavior.
9. Give and get more hugs.
10. Work hard and meaningful communication with another person.

-Lunchtime-

2 hours were given for our siesta. Talked to an Angel. Malungkot nga lang yung naging end nung conversation. Haiii.

-Session 3-

-Merienda-

-Confessions-

Acolyte ako nung mass. Well, 'twas kinda weird kasi hindi ko naman talaga alam yung ginagawa ng mga sacristan e. Hindi ko naman sila pinapanood pag mass. Mas alam ko pa yung work ng commentator at nung priest. Hahahaha. Lolz. Pero yun. Ok naman daw sabi ni Dean. Galing ko nga daw e, sabay palakpak. Hahaha.

-Dinner-

-Session 4-

Open Forum. Okay. All I can say is naiyak ako sa mga classmates ko. Turned out almost, if not all, samin nakakafeel ng pagiging outcast sa class namin ngayon. Wala lang. Ayun. I've opened that issue na jinujudge ako nang hindi pa ako kinikilala. May natamaan naman ako, malamang. Siguro naman hindi siya manhid. Pinaringgan din naman niya ako e. Nagkatinginan na nga lang kami ni Dean e. Ayun. Nag-sorry din ako kay Joy. Basta yun. Tapos yung isa pa na sobrang hindi ko na dapat banggitin. Alam naman na ng class namin e.

Na-touch ako kay Dean. Sa sobrang pagka-touch ko, I cried. As in hagulgol. Waaaah!! Tawag tuloy niya sakin "Crybaby". Asarrrrr.

-Bedtime-

DAY 3 [Sept. 14]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL YAYINE B. CARRIAGA! *ehem*

-Waking-

-Morning Praise-

-Breakfast-

Nag-ayos na ng stuff kasi uuwi na. Awwww. Tear! Hahahaha. We had to fold EVERYTHING para daw hindi mahirapan yung mga nag-aayos dun. Okifoign.

After fixing the dorms, we headed to the hall for our 2nd to the last session. Yun yung part na magbabasa ng letters from parents. Well, I wasn't expecting anything since sinabi sakin na wala daw silang letter for my retreat kaya nung inabot sakin yung letter nila, I started crying. Hindi ko pa nga nababasa, umiyak na ako. We were to write a writeback and that we did. The letters were offered dun sa huling mass.

The last session was hug therapy. Wah! Bitin! The time given was 5 mins. Ang ikli, men! Pero sobrang comfort yung nafeel ko. Ganun naman lagi pag hinu-hug ako e. Hehe.

-Mass-

-Bili ng Pasalubong/Rest-

-Go to bus-

-Lunchtime-

Yun. After lunch, we started going down. Yun. Super tahimik nung bus kasi pagod lahat and we were all asleep. Yun. An hour or two after, we started talking and maingay nanaman. Enjoy nanaman yung sa bus. Hahaha. Labo ko. Last stop over in Petron. Ate merienda and took loads of pictures. Hahaha. Laln.

Arrival in St. Paul: 9pm. Maaga pa yun, men! Wah! Sana yung trip pauwi mejo matagal kahit hilong-hilo ako. Hehehee.

Yung pix sa susunod na. Hehehe. Pagna-upload na sa Yahoo! Groups namin. Haha.

*Ang tanging ninanais ko/Ay matamo lamang ang pag-ibig mo/Lahat ay iiwasan ko/Wala nang kailangan/Sapat na ito*

*Siya noon, bukas, ngayon/Sa panalangin ko'y tugon/Siya ay si Hesus sa habang panahon* [Dean at Kam, mga walang hiya kayo! Binuking niyo ako! Harapan pa ha! Hahaha. Lolz. Mahal ko kayo!]

*What took you so long to make me cry?*

*What a journey it has been...* [with matching actions na namo-Monet]

*Ikaw lamang ang pangakong mahalin...*

*Puso ko'y binihag mo/Sa tamis ng pagsuyo*

Akala ko OK na...

O diba? Ang drama ng title! Hehe.

That "ok" there is all about today. I mean, akala ko pwede na akong manood ng movie. Yeah. Am supposed to be with the Angel and Kam [ata] at dapat nanonood kami ng movie ngayon. But noooo. My dad told me that I should rest my eyes PARIN kasi retreat ko na daw tomorrow and all. Ah, ewan. Was really looking forward to this day. Bonding nanaman kasi, if ever. Then, we planned din na dito sila matutulog samin and sabay-sabay kaming pupunta ng school tomorrow MORNING para sa retreat. But noooo ulit! The Angel told me na hindi daw siya pinayagan ng mom niya and si Kam hindi daw sure. Well, kahapon pa naman na hindi siya sure. A great. Fucker! Hahaha. Laln.

Anyway, tomorrow's the much-awaited Retreat ng mga Kilabot. Yeah. Laln. And ok na mata ko! Yeah!! Nakaabot! Thank you, God! Hehe. My bags are packed and am DEFINITELY ready to go. Hahaha. Excited si Gaga. Well, I still have to buy a new sneakers. My old one's worn out. Sobra. YEAH! SHOPPING! Wah! I'm so excited! Hehe. Laln. Oti.

SAMANTHA JESSICA ESMERALDA VILLARIN FERRER AND ALEXEI NOORDIN REYES MARCHADESCH, I'M SO HAPPY FOR THE TWO OF YOU! *SEPTEMBER 10, 2004*

Yeah, sila na! Wuhoo! I knew it! Hehe. Laln. Ang saya-saya! Sobrang na-touch ako sa dalawang yan. I WAS THE FIRST PERSON THEY CALLED NUNG NAGING SILA! Yeah! Hehe. Pasalamat sila sakin. Kung hindi dahil sakin, hindi sila magkakakilala! Hehe. Laln. Ang saya ko talaga para sa kanilang dalawa. Haha. Ale, move on na.

Red-eyed Ale.

POOR ALEIGNA'S GOT SORE EYES.

Imagine me with red and even smaller eyes. Ano pang nakita ko, diba? Pag tingin ko ng face ko sa mirror, parang nakapikit na ako. As in literal. Ah, shet! Sana wala na 'to sa retreat no. Hahaha. Well, my right eye's better na. Yung left naman yung ubod ng kati. Oh well.

*Kam, baliw ka talaga. Baka mahawa ka sakin sa ginawa mo kahapon. Langya, panu mo na makikita niyan sa Red Odie mo? Hahahahah. Lolz. Peace out! Luvyah, Soulmate! Miss ko na ikaw agad. Uy, paki sabi nga pala kay Angel puntahan 'tong page ko. Thanks a bunch, Soulmate!

*Manats, isa ka pa. Hinawakan mo pa yung mata ko. Sira ka talaga! Anyway, thanks nga pala dun sa favor na ginawa mo for me. Bawi ako next time. Kahit anong favor. Huwalaln.

Anyway, I'll be stuck here at home doing nothing. La pang makausap since everyone's in school right now. Haiiii.

Nga pala,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GLENNIE NI DEAN!

*Dean, nakalimutan ko siyang i-greet nung 1am. Hehehehe. Laln. And hindi na nga pala ako umaasa sa testi mo. Langya. Joke.

Okay. May papatamaan lang ako ng "konti". Well, I know how rejected you feel right now. I mean, dun sa mga tao sa part niya. I see your effort para matanggap ka nila and everything since kami, tanggap naman namin siya. Nakikita ko yung pagintindi mo sa kanila pero isn't it about time na ikaw naman intindihin nila? NIYA? I mean, all he ever tells you is "intindihin mo na lang". Hindi ba pwedeng "iintindihin din kita" or something. Hindi naman pwedeng ikaw lang lagi yung iintindi. Hai. Ewan. You guys should talk about that. Hindi na fair yung nangyayari. Lagi na lang siya. Men, kahit once lang, IKAW naman.

Isa pa. For YOU. Thanks for understanding my situation. Kahit wala pa akong nagawang decision, ikaw na yung nag-give way. Thank you, thanks talaga. Alam kong mahirap para sayo yung ginawa mong yun pero tinuloy mo parin. Thanks talaga. You really are an Angel.

Enough of the sentimental crap.

Anyway, talked to Dean-Dean/Deschy last night. Wala lang. Reminisce lang ng mga Gradeschool days. Men, sobrang yabang. Pero love's back in the air for him and ANO. Well, I could mention her name naman e pero wala lang. Baka ayaw niya pala. Laln.

*Dean-Dean/Deschy, oo na, crush na kita noon. Wag mo nang pagdiinan, no. Hahaha. Yabang mo talaga. And goodluck kay ANO. I knew it! Ang saya! Kinikilig ako for you guys. Hahaha. PERO MAYABANG KA PARIN! *wink*

Uh, paalala lang. RETREAT KO NA SA TWELVE! PALANCA KO! KAHIT SA EMAIL LANG, OK NA. Nice, technology ang gamit ni Gaga. Hahaha. Laln.

My 80th Post.

Hey! It's my 80th post! Hurrah for me! -end of weirdness-

"Sa iyo ang pag-ibig ko, Sa iyo napako ang puso, Sa iyo parang langit ang paligid ko, Sa iyo alay ang awit ko"

Yep. The weirdest LSS I had after 2 gazillion years. Whatthefuck. Oh wells.

I'm having a dilemma here. *oh! [background: Nelly]* I don't know what to do. Sobrang litung-lito na ako. Algeb class [first subject], my eyes were all misty kaya hindi ako maka-focus and I wasn't even faking na nakikinig. Sobrang bastusan talagang nakayuko ako buong Algeb class. I got a note from someone, I can't state her name here kasi praning siya. Super sweet and that made me smile for the first time today. The note went this way:

CAN I SEE A SMILE ON YOUR FACE? ..PLEASE?

I even planned to scan the note dahil sobrang napasaya niya ako but due to the demand of this person, I chose not to. Kinuha rin naman niya e. Hindi pa nakuntento. Nilamukos pa.

A&D went after Algeb. While waiting for Sir Don, wala na, hindi ko na nakayanan. Umiyak na talaga ako [Kam, Manats and Alyssa, thanks for the comfort]. Hai ewan.

-Fast foreward-

Lunchtime, talked to Kam and Krix and opened up what's really bothering me. Krix is Kam's bestfriend/cousin, by the way. Went back to the classroom. Wah! Umiyak nanaman ako. Shet, iyakin ko talaga. Went sa may staircase papunta sa floor ng Freshmen, umiyak nanaman. Went in front of the Music room, umiyak nanaman. Went sa may staircase sa tabi ng Music room papuntang floor ng Juniors, umiyak nanaman. Grabe. Hina ko talaga sa mga ganyan.

Grabe, hindi ko na talaga alam gagawin ko. Kung yung gusto ko ba o yung tama. Wala. Null. Wala talaga akong clue kung ano yung dapat kong gawin. Pero kahit anong gawin ko, mali. I know that for a fact. Kaya nga hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko e.

Okaaaayyyy. Coincidence. I have this problem, right? Liz sent our Yahoo! Groups a chain mail of some sort. The first line went this way:

"The problems you face will either defeat you or develop you - depending on how you respond to them."

Okaaaayyy. Sabi ko nga e.

*Hindi lahat ng gusto, pwede.*
*May mga bagay na pwede pero mali.*

I have seen Lea Salonga's Baby! *gasp*

Yep. I've watched the musical, Baby. I was with my mom, my dad and an Angel and we were at the orchestra part of the theater. Swerte, men! Kitang-kita! Okay. I don't really know if she wants me to tell the whole world pero I'm pretty sure Kam and Dean know's who I am with a while ago. Anyway, Baby was a very nice musical. Some of the lines were quite explicit and the whole show was PG-13. Me and the Angel were joking about how the guy at the door would stop her 'cause she looked way younger than her age. Hehe. Anyway, kahit na magpapasok sila ng mga chikiting sa loob, they won't understand the whole play and they really won't listen to what the characters would be saying. They'll just enjoy the colors and Lea Salonga. Hahaha.

After the show, we went to eat at Jerry's Grill along Libis then hinatid si Angel sa house nila and I am now here in front of the monitor, typing.

Men, ang daming gagawin tomorrow! I was planning to act sick tomorrow but when I realized na marami pa lang gagawin, ayun. Nawala na yung "sakit" ko. Hahaha. Sayang.

Sa inyong lahat, RETREAT KO NA PO! SA SEPTEMBER 12 NA! PALANCA KO! Hehe. Laln.

Oooooohhh! My phone's acting weird! Haha. Nagha-hang. Laln. Nakakatawa. Parang sinasabi niyang "Bossing, hindi ko na talaga kaya!". Hahaha. Don't worry, 6210 ko, malapit na birthday ko. Hahaha. Assuming ko, men! Pero yun. 7650 parin ang hiling ko. Angas ng itsura, men! Laln. Sharing!

*Pumpkin, kwento mo na kasi. Ito, nagpapasuyo pa! Naku naman! Hehe. See you tomorrow!

*Matet, in-add ko na name and birthday mo! Hehe. Kita-kits din bukas!

*Soulmate, wala lang. Trip ko lang na isama ka dito. Mahal kita e. Waw. MAshy ko! Haha. Ayun. Luvyah! See you tomorrow!

*Angel, *hug*

*Sis ko, kelan na ba kasi date natin? Wah!! Kasi naman e. Super busy. Laln. Ayun. Luvyah! Miss na kita!

*Tweenie, tigas niyo ni Ange ha! Kwento ka naman kung anong naririnig niyong sinasabi nila. Rack on, mga sisters! Haha. Laln. Naeexcite na akong marinig mga reaction nila! Naku, hatakin niyo nang lahat! Si Angela, aalis na rin yun! Tsaka si Kakai. Haha. Ako, naku, wala nang time sa ganyan! Pero pag dating ng mga grad practices magiging active na ulit ako. Malay mo, sumali din ako ng 8. Hehe. Lolz. Laln. Miss you! Luvyah!

*Maric, okay lang ba? I mean, sumali ng 8. Hahaha.

*Baby ko, wala lang. Hindi na kasi kita nababanggit dito e. Tag ka naman kung nadadaan ka dito. Ayun. I love you. Miss you na. Laln.

It's September 3 and we know what that means.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEMUELLE NATHAN TEJADA DING!

Yep, it's my favorite cousin's day! Huwalalan.

*May isa jan, pinagmamasdan ang mukha ni Kuya. Kahit anong gawin niya ay hindi niya ito makuha. Sino kaya yun?*

Cuz, kung mababasa mo man ito, I want you to know that I'll always be here for you. Alam naman nating hectic mga buhay natin ngayon kaya hindi pa tayo ulit nakakapag-bonding pero tandaan mo na I'm here for you and hinding-hindi kita iiwan. I'll forever be your cousin sa ayaw at sa gusto mo. Happy birthday, man!

Anyway, distribution of cards na tomorrow and I have one itsy bitsy teeny thing to say:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Pero I'm totally cool knowing na wala akong bagsak though I know my grades are LOW and my parents wouldn't like it. I just hope they understand. I mean, ginagawa ko naman yung makakaya ko e. Haii nako. Ang drama ko, men!

*Kam, obsessed ka na kay Kambal ko ha. Sige, since Soulmate kita, gagawin ko kayong friends and magiging close pa kayo. Hehe. Ang cute ni Kuya no? Hahaha. Lolz. Luvyah, Soulmate! See you on Monday!

The Seniors are Prevailing in the Zone. Rack on! Hehe.

A true blue Seniorita. Okaaay. Make that RED Seniorita. Hehehe.

Okay. Parang may sugat akong shaped na "S" sa cheek ko. Oh well.

We really RACK. Yeah. Hahaha. Laln. Had Laro ng Lahi awhile ago and we really showed them. Hahaha. Our cheer's very funny. "Jumbo Seniors, kaya niyo ba ito?". Okaaaaay. I'll stop. It'll really get to your nerves. But 'twas kinda cute.

Had a blast. And someone gave me something that I didn't expect. Laln. Nagulat lang ako. Itong si Dean naman, ginawan pa ng issue. Grrrr. Hehe. Joke lang!

I KNOW I'M GONNA EXPLODE!

Haiiiii nako. Airheads can really ruin my day. Pucha, tama ka, Kam. Kahit makita ko lang siya, masisira niya araw ko. Thank God angels and soulmates and pumpkins lighten up my day. Hehe.

Okay. My brother's pestering me 'cause he wants to use the pc. Sige na ngaaaaaaa!